<oicit><YEAH>!---到处漂流的小孩

上个日志里面的地址错了。。。。

应该是

oicit.spaces.live.com

 

。。 

msn space, my new place:

http://oicit.spaces.lives.com

这个小猫啃草的小地方，先要暂时离开一下了。

BUT I'll be back. Back to where I start. Back to all those far away thoughts, ideas and dreams about life.

胡言乱语。短语。

轻言巧语。清言丽语。

风言鱼语。有言有语。

慢言堕语。

总之，言语要回到言语初生的地方，选择继续出生。

 

 

 

闲逛国外某个infp的bbs，发现了这么一段话，很多没看懂。。

http://infp.globalchatter.com/messageboard/search.php?search_author=talos

Someone asked this on lj once and thought this is a good question to ask.

Shares my over the top, naive and fantasy filled response which sounds more than three.

Is curious what others feel or think when posed the question.

I want to know what it means to be free from constraint. I want to feel what others feel, I want to be expressive outwardly and not inwardly. To dream outward reality where everything gravitates to the magnetic pull of the enchanted world of extraverted guile. I want a pair of slippers that will magic all the pain of the world into one unimaginable surreal swishy universal hurt and explode with an imminent implosion of such magnitude that it’ll leave the end of the galaxy reeling. With sonic ripples through the space time continuum when I’m finally happy and in love with life like the day was new and irresistibly perfect beyond comprehension to the mandible eyes of the optical nervous system. And the heavenly host of cherished after thought of infusion into the magical realm of possibilities.

I want to experience love like I’ve never experience love before. For the first time to exist and know that the soul blessed shall express themselves freely with endearing love and gratitude to the fashionable exterior of momentous gain to the one that loved you back. To hold a candle to the drumming of the heart and the desires of insatiable healing and awakening at the same time to the disease that it means to be truly madly deeply in love with another human being so completely that it transcends space and time. That the love will feel everlasting because it holds such stupendous feeling of jubilation that your spirits sour to the highest peak and traverse the very depths of emotional gambit. To so completely bewilder and be bewildered that the utterance of love is its most painful moment of joy that words, tears, heart, soul is not enough to express the empowered emotion that it means to love. To so completely lose oneself in the vista of beatitude and unending breadth of soul that every part of your being is conquered and screaming with such incurable yearning that the infection between the very fabric of hell and heaven breaks into a moment of absolute chaos. To not be able to fathom the very real notion of reality against fantasy, to cherish and hold the very essence of spiritual capacity to unity that you wondered, we are mortal entities twined together for a progressive moment of tender loving care.

To achieve enlightenment in the furthest reaches of philosophical, religious and mysterious capacity to the equivalent of ten billion volts of static energy charging through your veins. To feel so invincible in comfort and knowing that the very fabric of existence itself is the existence that permuted from the existence of a paralleled universe. That the very axiom of time breaks through a niche into the very essence of the universal body of thought and everything becomes mightily clear and responsive to every essence of your being and sense of wonder that this is what its all about. That this is the very thing that we sought to know, that indeed our hopes and dreams are only eclipsed with the sharing and selfless giving of ourselves to others for the soul benefit of feeling the simplest gratitude of goodness.

本来还觉得本人的名字很俗。其实也还是，君不见狗狗一叼就叼来上千个高妍散步在祖国四面八方向您微笑。竟然本人还有一个师姐和本人同名同姓而且我入学时她刚毕业，而且本人也爱好文学向她学习。不过，老祖宗们还是相当有闲情雅致的。在此也要特别感谢本人的爸爸，妈妈。感谢他们起了这样一个大俗即大雅的名字~。~。~。~。~。阿哈哈。

苏东坡的词

《戚氏》

    玉龟山，东皇灵媲统群仙。绛阙岧峣，翠房深迥，倚霏烟。幽闲、志萧然，金城千里锁婵娟。当时穆满巡狩，翠华曾到海西边。风露明霁，鲸波极目，势浮舆盖方圆。正迢迢丽日，玄圃清寂，琼草芊绵。　争解绣勒香鞯。鸾辂驻跸，八马戏芝田。瑶池近、画楼隐隐，翠鸟翩翩。肆华筵，□间作管鸣弦，宛若帝所钧天。稚头皓齿，绿发方瞳，圆极恬淡高妍。　尽倒琼壶酒，献金鼎药，固大椿年。缥缈飞琼妙舞，命双成奏曲醉留连。云璈韵响泻寒泉。浩歌畅饮，斜月低河汉。渐渐倚霞，天际红深浅。动归思，回兮尘寰。烂熳游，玉辇东还。杏花风，数里响鸣鞭。望长安路，依稀柳色翠，点春妍。

另一人——邵懿辰，字位西，仁和人。道光辛卯举人，历官刑部员外郎，殉难。有《半岩庐集》。
其诗《桃溪石壁》

　　飕飕林风换，竦竦石气鲜。绝壁界白日，修萝缠青天。溪随松根断，径与石角旋。柔芳集低秀，软翠摇高妍。引新神逾奋，惜胜颈屡延。薄游笑曩昔，于道尚茫然。幽庭失咫尺，浅涉漫洄沿。此来喜彊侣，极境争所宣。凭虚鸟共集，度险猿相连。抱履花漠漠，拂袂云娟娟。微看隔溪路，横绝西崖巅。隐见递茅屋，迆逦开上田。机轮转洑港，云碓翻余涓。杂树春易永，高踪俗难缘。安得避世士，与之巢飞烟。
 

今天下午和朋友聊天。

有一句话突然有点触动我。我说。我想做一个设计师。“那你有没有想出一些way to access this dream？”我哑然了。显然没有。

没有。

我永远只是想一下东西。没有行动。甚至没有更深入的思考。

越来越处于某种漂浮的状态。

you have to learn something clearly and firmly. you have to grasp something definitely.

好好思考一下。绝对需要。

find what you really need. find what you really like. find what you really will do.

终于等到了。那个小小的visa啊。 恐怕是很久以来我十分用心等待的一样东西了。 有的时候也想狠狠地鄙视一下自己：你不是号称要超脱么？呸；你不是号称追求思想么？呸；你不是那什么什么吗……？呸！呸呸呸！…… 你呀。 你就是一个……………………………………嗯。你就是一个省略号。 你就是活脱脱完整整傻呆呆一个大。俗。人。 over。 那个啥：祝福我自己明天能够顺利地——盖14个章+去三里屯瑞士使馆拿签证+定好机票。 ====================================================== 恩。这一切是真的么？ 我在经历的这一切。 人。真是荒谬的一个东西。一堆骨肉。一堆化学反应。一团心电反应。一群细密心思。一个从离地一米多高处放射视觉，在两巴掌大平方处排挤视觉，嗅觉，味觉，听觉， 人。会做好多事情那。人。还有好多事情不会做那。 人。人。人。众。从。 给我一个洞吧先。让我安静的思考一下先。不过那样势必引起一场无谓可怜的小小爆炸。 突然有一阵危机感：我仿佛无法静心下去分析某个东西了；我似乎已经习惯用跳跃式朦胧式的态度来对待周遭了。What will I do finally? 大家都说：先赚钱。然后做自己喜欢做的事情。 这个简单的道理对我来说怎么好象困难重重？ 其实，也许是因为你闲呆了。 真的over。

本人现在在邵武。福建北部一个小城市。我悲惨的要去赶凌晨一点半的火车回北京。

然而之前武夷的风光是足够美好的。

纵然这个叫做邵武的地方……很小。有一点脏。比较破。

街道两边的商店倒还算有摸有样，并且以英文店名或者音译的中文店名为主。

没找到可以看电影的电影院。有一个电影院里面摆满了台球桌，另一个电影院里面的夜宴从明天开始上映。汗啊。

不过看到了麦当劳与肯德基的中国本土版本——美其乐与乐香基。

后来找到一家网吧度日。通宵的。够味。

厦门。武夷。邵武。

中国的城市以及农村。

其实有很多可以说的。回去了慢慢写吧。

本人现在需要去赶火车了。行色匆匆啊。

今天送走滚同学。一个人回学校的路上，公车里面悠悠晃晃。想起国庆长假不知该如何度过。一直沉浸在等待中的日子并不是如想象中那么惬意。

然而突然想起。一个叫做厦门的地方。以及有一个好朋友在那里读书。

于是。于是。

近似飞快的定好了机票。联系了朋友。

后天我要去厦门。

What will be the new thing?

这样的两个礼拜：每天恣意睡眠。

人是飘浮的。所有的所谓ps，德语，摄影，乃至很多其他。都被我抛在脑后。

我真是一个懒人。骨子里面的懒。

越来越多次的号称自己不想工作。

那么你想做什么？

想拥有一个惬意漂亮的小房子，在一个安静的大湖边。养着乱七八糟的一些小活物，当然一定要有猫猫狗狗。每天起床啦。出去逛逛。

那么为啥不去设想一些更加宏伟的蓝图呢？比如在某商业组织里面担任头头脑脑。比如在某政府里面呼风唤雨。比如……比如……

你现在为啥这么懒？